So I have decided that I am done feeling like I am always the one doing something wrong. I am done taking everyone else’s emotional baggage and making it my own. I am done allowing other peoples words dictate my feelings. I am done with feeling like I don’t belong somewhere, when clearly that is just how you would like to make me feel. I am done allowing you to make me feel small. I am done taking excuses like “its a joke, so chill” as a reason why its okay. I am done pretending like everything is fine when it is not. I am done accepting being treated as anything less then what i deserve. So you can just save all of your “jokes” for someone who thinks your funny.

So no matter what I do I am clearly the bad guy. Honestly no matter which way I turn evidently all i do is screw up. Okay universe! yah got me!! i officially just give up!

One: There will always be some people who won’t treat you right. There is nothing you can do to make then like you, because it has nothing to do with you. It’s them and there misplaced feelings. So let it go and try not to take it personally even though it will always feel personal.
Two: Some people will always have the ability to make you smile. These people love you and can see your upset and they will do anything in their power to fix the damage others have created.
Three: There are other people you can trust, even though it’s scary. Not everyone will betray your trust, so don’t force yourself to not trust people because some people really deserve it.

So today was my boyfriend James’ 18th birthday. I spent the day with him and his family, whose pretty much just amazing all around. James was so excited today because of the new amp he got, all his friends and family chipped in and got him this monster piece of technology. The thing is practically up to my waist. But anyway he was just so excited to play with his new “toy”. It was adorable to watch him be so jazzed up about it. His light hearted spirit is infectious. Happy birthday James!

Question: Why are people so stupid?

Answer:I have no idea. People enjoy creating problems in their own lives and no matter how hard you try to show them the truth, they just never see it. If you ask me I’d say its because people today are so focused on getting attention for their “individuality” that they end up becoming exactly as “different” as everyone else is. People frustrate me beyond belief.

So today at the McKenna house not only will we be making pretzels later (which is destined to end in a catastrophic melt down, bonus points for correct spelling), we have been playing with slime. That’s right. Slime. You know? The gooey stuff that they used on slime time live back in the day? The only reason I know that is because Nora and I were obsessing over remembering the show’s title. So today has been a blast from the past all around (yes I really just said “blast from the past”). All right so now that my first post is done, this page will hopefully look less pathetic. Time for some pretzels…with cheese:)